Random Commentary on Life

I need a new hobby lol

2008-07-26T12:18:00.004-05:00

So I haven't posted in a while, and I'm bored today, and I love these things lol...

1. How Old Will you be in 12 Months?
22 years, 9 months old

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
I don't think so but who knows lol

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
Spending time with my best friends and my boyfriend :)

4. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
socks, my feet get cold easily haha

5. Are you a social person?
Yes most of the time

6. What was the last thing you ate?
Taboula :)

7. What is your favorite color(s)?
Black and green

8. What are you doing for your next birthday?
Probably getting drunk lol

9. What is your favorite TV show?
Project Runway currently haha

10. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
I don't do PB & J.

11. Do you like coffee?
Nope

12. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
Not as many as I should sadly.

13. What are you listening to?
John Legend

14. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
I pretty much roll around all over

15. Do you know how to play poker?
Yes and I am completely obsessed haha

16. What are you thinking about?
My boyfriend :)

17. Any plans for this weekend?
Waitin on my baby :)

18. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Eat out.... work and little time

19. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
Yes lol

20. Do you prefer an ocean or pool?
A pool, oceans have whale sperm in them lmao

21. Can you drive a stick shift?
Not well at all

22. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Poker and books

23. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
My bear claw ring

24. Do you speak any other language?
I'm learning German and I understand a bit of Spanish

25. Who is the funniest person you know?
Probably my sisters

26. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
I have a Spongebob pillow and a stuffed monkey lol

27. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
"No Air" by Jordon Sparks and Chris Brown

28. What is the color of your bedroom walls?
A funky green color

29. Do you shut off the water while you brush your teeth?
Yes

30. Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Yes. My baby

31. Do you miss someone?
YES. DEARLY.

32. Do you talk to the person who posted this before?
No, but I wish I did more often

ARE YOU:
1. Obsessed with sex?
Not obsessed....lol

2. Are you tall?
No, I'm short as hell haha

(Number 3's a NINJA!)
wtf? lol

4. In your PJs?
Yup, I'm lazy

5. Left handed?

LAST:
1. Last person you saw:
Catherine across the room from me

2. Last person you hugged:
Sarah

3. Talked to on the phone:
Mi madre

4. Person to IM you:
Gary

5. Was today better than yesterday?
Don't know yet

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning?
A: Snooze.

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: Just the uncertainty of life at the moment

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters and who'd you watch it with?
A: The Dark Knight with Mark, Kim, and Danny

Q: Where is the last place you went?:
A: Mary'z Cafe

Q: Do you smile a lot?
A: Yes I do now :)

Q: Do you wish upon stars?:
A: Sometimes lol

Q: Where did you sleep last night?:
A: In my bed, but without him :(

Q: Why did you sleep there?:
A: Cause it's my bed lol

Q: When was the last time you cried?:
A: Last weekend

Q: What are you about to do?:
A: Sit around the house

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: The Lord of the Rings

Q: What's your favorite month?:
A: October

Q: How many kids do you want/have?:
A: No more than two

Q: Do you still talk to the person you last had a thing for?
A: Yes, I'm dating him :)

Revamp...

2008-06-21T12:15:00.007-05:00

Ok it's been a really long time since I've posted because I can't think of anymore objective and random philosophical thoughts lol. So I've made the executive decision that I am changing this blog into more of a personal diary thingy. I will still try to be intellectual about some things cause I'm a nerd lol but it will definitely be more general now. To kick this off, I'm gonna start with this random quiz thing I found. So here goes:

Does the last person you kissed have any importance in your life? Of course he does. He's one of the most important.
Do you currently have a hickey? Where? haha no
Who was the last person you talked to on the telephone? My mom lol
What were you doing at 7am? I was definitely sleeping
What was the reason you last cried? Althought I'm ashamed to admit it, I cried over a guy
What was the last movie you saw in theater and with who? The Happening with Cailtin
What are you seriously wearing? Dr. Pepper pj's lol
Have you ever talked to someone when they were high? A lot, we used to hang with some shady people lol
What did you do last night? Watched Saeid play poker and read about poker haha
What are you doing tonight? Poker tournament lol
Would you ever dye your hair blonde? Oh hell no
Can you make brownies without having to look at the directions? No, I'd probably end up poisoning someone lol
Any plans for tomorrow? Ummmmm reading I guess lol
Do you still talk to the person who broke your heart the worst? No
What was the last book you read? Bits of Doyle Brunson's Super System
Are you happy with life? For the most part yes lol
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? In theory, yes, but in practice that is SO hard
Are you afraid of falling in love? Sometimes, but that would never keep me from falling :)
Do you own plaid pants/skirt? Of course I own plaid pants, I play golf lol
How do you feel about the person that you've become? I honestly like myself. Physically I could use some work but as far as personality and what not, I love me :)
Do you hate the last guy/girl you had a thing with? I try so hard not to but honestly, yes, he was really terrible to me
Have you ever been out past curfew? Um, duh lol
When was the last time you were drunk? A couple weeks ish
Have you ever been in trouble with the cops? No
What's the connection between you and the last person that called you? She's my mom lol
Do you kiss people when you're single? That's a vague question but I would say yes if I find someone new, but then that would mean I'm not single anymore so you figure it out lol
Do you want a boyfriend or girlfriend? Yes, I do
When did your last kiss take place? In my car lol
Are you a jealous person? No, not unless I have a legitimate reason to be, which is rarely
Are you tired right now? No
Do you chew on your straws? Yeah lol
Have you ever been called a tease? No
Do you lead people on? I try not to but apparently it's happened on accident
Have you ever been awake for 48 hrs straight? No
Do you like to cuddle? It's pretty much my favorite thing ever :)
Do you cry easily? No
Do you have any siblings? Two little sisters that I love most of the time haha jk all the time
What should you be doing right now? Harrassing employers to give me a damn job lol
Are you a heavy sleeper? It depends on how tired I am
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 month? Easily. I have no problem with commitment
Are you mad at someone right now? A couple, not to sound like an angry person lol
Do you believe in love? Abso-fucking-lutely
Have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high? No, that's impossible lol
What makes you laugh no matter what? My sisters :)
Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past month? Yes
Who was the last person you talked to? Catherine
Do you get butterflies around the person you like? Everytime I see him
Will you get married? Only if the right man asks me, I won't marry for the sake of being married or so I won't be alone
Have you ever been too drunk to remember a certain night? No, I always manage to remember bits and pieces lol
When was the last time you smiled? Everytime I read a question where the answer is him :)
Does anyone like you? I hope so lol
Do you secretly like someone? Not secretly, important people know lol
Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do? I wouldn't be jealous, I'd be angry because he's happy and I'm left picking up the pieces
Do you plan on moving out within the next year? Here's hoping lol
Are you a forgiving person? For the most part, there are things that I cannot forgive however, I'm not God
What's something you really want right now? A few non-materialistic things
How many true friends do you have? Five, I'm really lucky :)
Do you fall for people easily? No and that's why it hurts so bad when it fails
What's the last thing you put in your mouth? Food haha
Have you ever kissed anyone named Michael? No
Who was the last person you drove with? My sister Catherine :)
Would you ever kiss the last person you kissed again? In a heartbeat
Who was the last person to text you? My other sister Sarah
If you could move somewhere else, would you? Depends
Do you prefer to call or text? Text usually
Who was the last person you took a picture of? Wow, um, I don't even remember lol
Can you live a day without TV? Yeah
What is your ring tone? Kelly Clarkson's "Because of You"
When was the last time you were extremely disappointed? When I couldn't go to NY this summer :(

After doing this I realized that some of the questions were histerical while others were a bit too, revealing shall we say lol. Oh well, it was fun anyway :)

Pet Peeves

2008-05-28T23:18:00.004-05:00

It seems customary in our day to do group activities everytime a new group is formed: a freshman class, teamwork conferences at work, etc. Similar behavior takes place when two strangers meet randomly in order to get to know each other better. One of the topics that enevitably comes up in conversation is pet peeves. Usually I just make something up but in the past couple of days, I've realized I actually have an answer. Well, more like a combination answer...thingy. Anyway my biggest pet peeve is ignorance/stupidity.

Before anyone jumps to conclusions about me being terrible, insensitive, or intolerant let me explain. The American Heritage Dictionary defines ignorance as the condition of being uneducated, unaware, or uninformed. And stupidity is defined as a poor ability to understand or to profit from experience by WordNet. One can't blame someone for simply not knowing something; no one is born knowing everything and indeed no one dies that way either. However, if you do have access to certain information and either don't seek it out or can't figure it out because of some reason other than legitimate learning disabilities and the like, you are to blame and you anger me.

As an example, in fact the one that inspired this rant, I was watching Fight Club the other night when a stupid and ignorant person approached and started bashing the movie and in turn, me for watching it. They came in during one of the fight scenes and started yelling about how "that kind of ignorant thuggery is immoral". Ironic that they used that word - ignorant. We got into a very brief argument about the meaning of the movie and how the fighting is merely the vehicle which delivers meaning to the audience. Unfortunatley before I could really get into the meaning, I was shut down and told to turn it off because, again, it was immoral. Frustrated, I finally just asked if they had even seen the movie. Not at all suprising at this point, the answer was no. Now, I'm not claiming that this is the movie of the century or anything but it is a very good movie and indeed the fighting is no more than a tool. I will defend it to a certain extent but if someone doesn't like it, I can't help that. However, if you bash it and me for watching it and have never seen it yourself and get that angry about it, you're a damn fool.

Baically ignorance and stupidity fuel anger and violence and I have no tolerance for it. Perhaps "pet peeve" is too mild a description...

Speak now...

2008-05-27T11:28:00.005-05:00

So as this is a random journal, here is my next appropriately random thought. Towards the end of a wedding ceremony the pastor, preacher, priest, whatever says "speak now or forever hold your peace".

Why is it peace and not piece? It makes more sense to me that it would be the latter. If you have something to say, it can be referred to as a piece. Therefore that's what the preacher should be referencing. That, and if you really have some sort of obection to the union, will you be at peace if you say nothing? And if you were at peace with the situation and had nothing to say in the first place, the preacher wouldn't need to tell you to shut up.

And are we also obligated to say something if we oppose the union? And does that apply to only weddings, or any kind of coupling? Everyday people "hook up" or get together with people that are bad for them. It's usually understood that the friends or family should say something but they rarely do for fear of the other person getting angry or hurt. Why are we all guilty of neglecting what's best for us?

How Long Is Long Enough?

2008-05-21T23:33:00.004-05:00

I was watching Sex and the City today (can't wait for the movie! lol) and Charlotte said something that made me stop and think this time around. It takes half the time two people were together for them to get over the relationship after a breakup. Is this true? On top of all of the rules of engagement for dating and being together, is there another set of rules for breaking up? And if so, are they published anywhere?

What if you get over them "too quickly"? Does that make you cold? Or foolish? Por ejemplo, or however you spell that, I was in a very dysfunctional relationship for a year. By Charlotte's logic I still have another three months give or take (not really sure when the official end was). And while I'm still angry and slightly bitter about what happened, my heart feels free and ready to move on. These past couple of days have been amazing and I feel just...elated. Even still, I often wonder if what he and I had really didn't matter because I've "gotten over it" so quickly and have freely pursued-ish new opportunities, or maybe if I'm being foolish by moving on so quickly. If I am moving too fast, does that leave me vulnerable and more likely to get hurt again, and possibly worse than last time?

I guess the real question is, are there any guide lines or etiquette to this game we call love? My heart feels scarred yet healed, but is it too soon? How are we meant to deal with this?

Jesus and his ball and chain?

2008-05-19T21:33:00.017-05:00

I know this is an old, old topic but I recently read the book The DaVinci Deception, written about the ideas brought to the forefront of society's collective mind by Dan Brown's The DaVinci Code - the possibility that Jesus was married to Mary Magdalene.

I won't go into too much detail here because ya'll can take the time to read the book if you want the full overview of these theories but here's the basic gist. It is suggested that Jesus Christ was actually married to Mary Magdalene. The church was supposed to be created through Mary after Jesus' crucifixion but because of the disapproval of the disciples and the Catholic church's desire to protect patriarchal rule, she was labelled a whore and stripped of her authority. It is also said that the two of them had a child named Sarah which started a holy bloodline that eventually mingled with the French royal family. Because of this, Mary is labeled in the novel as the Holy Grail, the chalice or vessel of the bloodline of Christ. There's been other literature written about these "facts" as well such as Holy Blood,Holy Grail and The Messianic Legacy.

The DaVinci Deception was written solely for the purpose of knocking The DaVinci Code; debunking it as it were. It gave a whole list of reasons why these claims of marriage and a holy bloodline couldn't be true. Most of them seemed reasonable, almost as reasonable as the claims in The DaVinci Code seemed as I was reading them. As I read and remembered the arguments on both sides and absorbed the tones and attitudes of various authors, one question kept playing in the back of my mind - Does it really even matter?

Honestly, who cares if Jesus was married? Does it matter if his wife was a "whore" before she met Him? Who cares if they had children? Who cares if the line mixed with the Merovingians? And who really cares if the line is intact today and His descendants are walking among us? As far as I'm concerned it doesn't matter at all. Firstly, if all these claims were true it would not affect His divinity in the slightest. He would still be God; the Word become flesh. If anything we could write that off as proof that He was also man, and that He truly did understand the plight of humanity because He would have lived a "full" human life. After all, isn't that one of the most comforting and amazing things about Christ? The fact that He was made a man, incarnated in flesh and walking among us so that He truly understood our pain and strife and could speak the Word directly and effectively to our hearts so we could know we aren't alone because God truly understands? I think so, and marriage would only enhance that.

Secondly, being married with children could never change the greatest and most important reason for Christ's being - the salvation of humanity. Christ came into this world to live a perfect and blameless life so that his sacrifice on the cross would be adequate atonement for the sins of humanity. This is the only way God could reconnect with His people. If Jesus had been married would his sacrifice then mean any less to us, any less to God?

And lastly, if He did have descendants that were walking around among us today, what would that change? We certainly wouldn't worship them because while they may in theory be part God, they are not the divine Redeemer that Christ was. They would serve no divine purpose in this world besides perhaps guiding the church in the way, say, the Imam guides the Islamic community as a descendant of Muhammad. They would never be on the same level as Jesus Christ.

I had a few other thoughts on this subject but I waited too long to post and they escaped me haha. I suppose I just don't understand what all the fuss is about and I certainly don't believe the Catholic church is just one big power hungry, women hating, fake institution. I find any and all literature on the subject fascinating but I don't know how much value I put in any of it. I suppose this is one of those mysteries we'll never truly know the answer to until we're dead. Remember, comments are more than welcome becasue I'd like this journal to be interactive :)

Intro please emcee...

2008-05-16T18:13:00.000-05:00

I have a LiveJournal account where I used to vent or posts joys and concerns, things like that. Lately I've been starting to feel like I need to have a place where I can post less emotional and more "philosophical" thoughts and ideas that people can respond to if they choose. Some things in life are tough and we should all have help so if anyone wants to comment I'll return the favor :) Secondly, there's plenty in life that people don't take the time to think about, even though they're important. I'm not saying I hold answers to all questions or that I'm the 21st century Socrates, I just want to throw some stuff out there, food for thought if you will, for my own enjoyment and personal reflection if nothing else. So enough rambling, that's the overview of my purpose here :)